I didn’t know part 3
4 years later I was a Sophomore in high school and my cousin and her boyfriend were now engaged with a 2 year old daughter. Nothing had happened between us and they seemed happy. She still had no knowledge of what he’d done to me. I on the other hand was going crazy trying to duplicate that feeling he used to give me. I had found a stash of porn and would watch them when I was home alone. I was sure to rewind them to the same spot they started in. I never found any toys so I resorted to penis shaped things around the house. No matter what I used I couldn’t make it feel how he did. I was still a home body so I didn’t have friends to help me with …