Don’t tell mom

This happened 2 days after my 19th birthday. I grew up in a small town in New Jersey. This was back when the drinking age was still 18. I came home from the bar one night. And I was very very drunk. We went to see a local band that we go to see just about every weekend. I was still living at home but my parents were out of town that weekend. I stumbled into the house. I didn’t realize anybody was home but my brother was. He was downstairs in the family room with his friend Charlie. I got undressed and got into the shower before I went to bed… While I was in the shower my brother came in, he was drunk as well. And stood there watching me while I was in the shower. A little while later he left the bathroom and I finished my shower. I must have gone in my room and flopped on my bed naked. A couple minutes later my brother’s friend Charlie what’s between my legs eating my pussy. It felt really good and I always had a crush on him. I had several orgasms that I remember while he was eating my pussy. I didn’t notice that my brother was standing there watching. Then Charlie asked me if he could fuck me? I told him yes I would like that. Then he told me to bend over. So I did. He told me he didn’t have any condoms. I told him I didn’t have any either. Then I told him not to worry about it. He was fucking me for a very long time and it felt wonderful I was having multiple orgasm. He didn’t orgasm he pulled out a couple seconds later I thought that he put his cock back in my pussy. But it wasn’t Charlie it was my brother inside of me. I didn’t realize it until Charlie came up and put his cock in my mouth. I did know what to say or do so I just let it happen. The 2 of them fucked me for a very long time. I was pretty drunk and it felt really good. Then my brother came inside of my pussy!!! I was very worried about that. Then right after he pulled out Charlie shoved his cock in me and started fucking me very hard and very fast. And my brother put his cock in my Mouth. I couldn’t say anything because he was cramming his cock so far down my throat as he held the back of my Head. I was having multiple orgasms. Then my brother looked down at me and said don’t tell mom!!!! About 20 minutes later Charlie came in my pussy. And a couple minutes after that my brother came in my mouth. Then without saying a word they both left my bedroom. I woke up the next morning with a hangover. And my sheets were soaked. I got up still naked. Throw on a robe and put my sheets in the washer before my parents got home. My brother came in and said do you remember anything about last night? I did remember everything. But I told him no I don’t remember anything. He laughed and said yeah you were pretty drunk when you came in last night. I just played stupid like I didn’t remember anything that went on. About 2 weeks went by. And I wasn’t feeling well so I went to the doctors. To find out that I was pregnant. I wasn’t dating anybody at the time so I knew it had to be Charlie’s or my brothers. I told my brother that I was pregnant. He still thought that I didn’t remember anything about that night. He asked me what I was going to do and who have I been with? Not to lead on that I knew what him and Charlie did to me. I said I haven’t been with anybody I just don’t understand it. At 1st I said I’m going to talk to mom and dad about this because I want to keep the baby. He went ballistic. He told me I was too young to have the baby and if I told mom and dad they would never trust me again. Then he told me that I should have an abortion and he would pay for it. He said it was the best thing to do. And a few days later he took me to the doctors for the Abortion. I never told anybody in a family about what happened. And my brother still believes that I don’t remember anything. I hope he never reached this story. I remember everything that happened that night even how good it felt. That never happened again after that night. My brother ended up getting married and divorced twice. And I move forward with my life as well. Sometimes thing happened when we’re younger. We make mistakes we learn from them. We have secrets in our lives that we keep to ourselves not to hurt the rest of the family and the people around us. This is what makes us all human. If I knew for sure that I was carrying Charlie’s baby I never would have had an abortion I would have kept the baby and raised it alone if need be. But I could never take the chance that it was my brothers. I had 2 beautiful boys after that. With a man I was with for a very long time. I never told him what happened that night. And I probably never will. Thank you for reading this story.

Darlene J Malewit