when i was 12 i started talking to a 48 yr old man, we met up in the woods and he fucked me
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i’m going to name him Ross for this. When i was 12 i had a moment thinking about what i liked and what i wanted. i figured out i was lesbian but i had a very bad obsession with older men, i figured it’s because of my bad childhood and my dad was never there for me so i love any attention from an older man.
anyway, i met Ross outside my school. He was my friends uncle although i never really looked at him properly i could tell he was someone i’d want, i went home and went straight to bed because i was tired. at around 12am my phone was ringing and i answered, it was a facetime call from someone i didnt know. I heard my friends voice and he said “my uncle is on the call by the way, he wanted to talk to you” i was actually confused because i didn’t exactly know Ross at all but either way we spoke for a few hours and at about 3 in the morning we decided we will meet in the woods the next day.
That next day on the way to the woods i was nervous, i have bad social anxiety and meeting up with a guy has always made me uneasy because of the stories about murder, though its not like i can turn back because then i would look stupid. I saw Ross across the entrance of the woods and he came up to me. he was very much taller than me and had muscle, a short beard and dark scruffy hair but what made me rub my thighs together was the fact he looked like Joel Miller from the last of us. i know its crazy and probably stupid but he was so hot. We walked deep into the woods and we spoke about life and my childhood, i cried at some point because i felt lonely about everything. i was being bullied in school and my home life wasnt great, Ross hugged me but for some reason after hugging him i felt wet. I dont even know what got into me because i get so shy with this stuff, he was sat down manspreading so i quickly sat on his lap and kissed him. He moved back and asked me what i was doing, i apologised and moved away from him until he held my hand and said “im not sure you want this, youre young and i could get arrested” i shook my head at him and replied “i want it, no one is ever gonna know i swear” he pulled me back on his lap and carried me to a large tree placing me against it, he pulled down my little leggings and didn’t even let me prepare myself before he shoved his dick inside my virgin hole. I practically screamed and he clamped his hand over my mouth whispering that im a good girl and i feel so good. It turned me on when he praised me, i loved it. After a little bit it didnt hurt anymore and i was biting into his shoulder.
Ross started kissing me and i suddenly felt something warm and wet squirt inside me, i panicked and pushed him away but he pinned me down and promised to breed me and fill my stomach up with babies. i didnt know exactly what he meant by it but i never fell pregnant. Im 15 now and we lost contact after something that happened. i’ve craved an older man ever since